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Toasting A Lady In My 100level.

It was in 100level we met in the science lecture theatre. Being a guy that loves knowing and seeing new friends I got attached to her.

She was bearing my surname as well, so I guess fate brought us together. " Agada " my surname was also her surname.

It was on a Friday we met, yes after the Gst111 class was over. It was the last lecture for the week so I just waited for a little before going to the class to read through my Mth111.

" Is that Phy 111 you have there? " I asked.

" Yes, it is. " She replied.

" But the cover is different. Mine is not the same as yours. " I showed her my textbook.

" Ohh yes that's true! Am from Agric Economics Department, so our textbook is different from that of College of Science, so as College of  Engineering. " She replied with a smile.

" Do you mind if I check through your textbook? " I asked.

" Sure you can. Why not join me here. " She said.

" Ok then! " I withdrew to her row, as we sat next to each other.

" So what's your name? " I asked.

" Am Agnes Agada and you? " She replied.

" Am Zion Peter, but you can also call me Peter Agada. " I replied.

" Agada!!! " She screamed.

I guess she did not believe me either.

That was how we talked for almost an hour, while I checked through the textbook to see if there was anything in her book that could be of help to me. I also discovered from her that we shared the same local government area.

" Sorry would you mind giving me your number? " I pleaded.

" Sure, dear. 080******67. " She called it for me.

" Ok, dear! I would call you later, let me go cover some topics in Mth111 in the library. " I told her.

" Haaa see me I forgot to ask of your department. " She sighed.

" It's normal! I am from the Department of Mathematics. " I replied.

" You don't mean it! Thank God I have seen someone that would be teaching me mathematics. " She smiled.

" Hmmm, maybe you would be the one to teach me sef. " I laughed.

" Don't joke with me. I would call you when I come to class later. " She replied.

That was how I got a new friend combined with my three male friends, so I have 4 friends now. A girl and three boys.
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We started reading together. Most times she comes to class earlier than I do, so she kept her bag on a seat next to her so that we read together.

Am usually the long reading type: I read from 8 pm to 5 am most often. So I taught her to read all through the night, and she pretty became a genius in reading more than I did.

She was never satisfied. She read as if exams were holding the next day, from her i learnt " Perseverance " from this damsel. She is beautiful and cool.
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One piece of advice my parent gave to me before stepping foot on campus, was never to allow distraction come near my studies and my dreams. 

Agnes was not a distraction to me from the beginning, so I saw her just as a friend. I was not only reading with her, I have some course mate that we read in the same class with, but not the same seat as I and Agnes did.

The ministry was moving to the permanent site.
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Suddenly I became attracted to Agnes in another way, I wasn't seeing her just like a friend again, neither was she an enemy.

I started caring more than I did just to a friend, it wasn't a big distraction but I noticed jealousy and bitterness anytime I see her with another guy.

Knowing she was single, and seeing the green light she showed I was also aware she liked me too. But!

" Remember not all green light means go. Some traffic lights malfunction most often causing accidents. "

We still read as normal, relate as normal even when love steeped in.

You are human! So having feelings is not bad, but hope it won't distract you?
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So I asked most of my friends in parables which would be the best. I did not refer to the issue as being mine but just asking. 

" It's good for the person to say it! Then allow it disturbing," they said.

But I told my very tight friend in school then. We knew before getting admission, he is studying Mechanical Engineering.

" Verem How you see this stuff! Should I go? " I asked john mark. ( Verem is his tribal name. )

" Me I don't like that Agnes of a girl. She has an ego and I feel she is just using you as an escort and so on," he replied.

" Johnny I said I like this girl, which one is ego? " I asked.

" Hmmm, Peroo don't come complaining later. I am not in support of that girl. Even if you must date. Not Agnes! " he replied.

" Ok. I have heard you. " I changed the topic.

While all these inquiries were going on, my love was growing.

Celebrate grace!
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So I prepared one day to ask her out.

We normally walk a little when sleep starts in. We just walk around the classroom block so to chase sleep away. 

So that faithful day she said she wanted to sit outside for some time, so I said I would sit with her.

" God is behind me! Agnes hardly stays outside for long. " I celebrated in my heart.

After we sat down, I tried to tell her but I couldn't because my heart was beating so fast.

How will I start? What would be her response? Are you sure she likes you? All this ran through my mind.

So I halted the process and told her I would be going back to read.

" Just now we sat here! And you want to leave? Please stay before boys would come and start disturbing me. " She pleaded.

" So you mean??..? " I asked.
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Anytime she sees me talking to a girl she would just cough and greet me. I would go and start explaining myself better.

" She is just a friend. We met?? Do you know that my guy? Yes, she is his sister. " I narrated.

" I know! " she answered with her suspicious looks.
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So one faithful Thursday eve I called her so we could walk around the school because we barely do.

So we saw, walked a little, and sat somewhere. It wasn't dark then.

" But Peter you haven't ever asked who my boyfriend is! " she asked me.

My heart started beating very fast for no just cause.

" I did not see it important, by the way, you told me you were single all this while. " I replied.

" Not single again! I gave him a yes yesterday, I now have a boyfriend," she replied.

" I...don..t g..e..t! " I stuttered.

" I mean am not single again! " she replied with a smile.

" Hope all is well? " she asked.

" Yes all is well " I pretended and smiled at her.
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I did not cry! I did not frown?. I was depressed.

My motivation became my distraction? I don't know how I got over it.

But sincerely it wasn't easy. 😭😭😭😭😭

And now I have always killed any feeling of love. If you see me, you see me as a freeman.

Not scared of love. But not ready for that ugly incident again?

To my young generation never be distracted, pursue your dreams.
Don't let love lead to suicide. 
Don't let love lead to sin.
Don't let love lead to you losing your mind.

Based on a true-life story.
? Zion Peter Jnr

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